iΒ΄m a mother now <3

and i love it !!
Jonathan,my sweet sweet son came 28 august with c-section,and he was and is the most precious beautiful babyboy iΒ΄ve ever seen.
My little J is soon 7 months old,and growing fast πŸ™‚
Every day is a blessing ❀

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In this photoΒ΄s he is 5 months old πŸ˜€

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i love you ❀

Under 100 days left !!

Hey my wonderful people,who follow my blog..or are going to follow now,after reading this πŸ˜›

Been a long time now,and im so sorry for not updating you guys..Because iam always updating on other social media,like facebook and instagtam ( follow me->Β  kalihk )

As i told you before iam gonna get a c-section either 31 august or 1 september,and thats only 95..94 days till this dates πŸ˜€
I cant wait,i wanna see my babyboy right now,but he still needs to chill inside my belly for a few months πŸ˜‰
Every day now he is kicking me,and moving alot..its so amazing,even tho i get sick sometimes because he is so strong,and he kick real hard,and he move alot..think maybe he is dancing or something lol xD

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This was me 10 days ago ( 24+2) Now iam 25+5 πŸ˜€

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Injera πŸ˜‰

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I cant wait to see you Jonathan

Next week iam going back to jordmor,and im not excited..not anymore..she dont make this journey any fun for me,she stress me more than anything..and i decided its gonna be my last time there.
When i need blood taken and pee test,i do it at my own doctor.
In a few weeks we can also start to buy more for our son,before he comes..and i cant wait for that..we gonna do so much to make it perfect for him ❀
This summer is gonna be so slow,just waiting on him πŸ˜€

Anyway,we dont have any plans this summer,other than make everything ready for him..and just enjoy.

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Jonathan 08 april 2015.. long time ago now lol πŸ˜€
Look at that cute nose ❀

More update later πŸ˜‰
Now iam gonna eat some pommes frites and watch YouTube πŸ™‚

The P is for pain

in psoriasis.
I have had this skin diseas since i was 4-5 years young,and it still keeps hunting me to this day.
Treatment after treatment i tried,year after year..most of them helped for a little while,then i had to try something else.
In 2010 i finally tried stelara,and it changed my life..after a few weeks i could see the difference..and after months it was all gone.It was a miracle!! After almost 5 years with this amazing medicine i had to stop,and my last treatment was in august 2014,because iam now pregnant ( over 5 months ).
My psoriasis was slowly coming back..and then BOOM..its everywhere..and its painfull..its hurting,..itching..bleeding..and i dont even know what to do..i cant start with stelara,but i can take some light treatment,even tho i know it doesnt help me that much..and then of course lotions and creams..everything sticky and icky and my clothes get ruined and my bedsheet is full of white snow and lotions and oils…
Everything hurts,to take a shower..put on socks..and shoes..washing up the dishes..or just simply wash my hands…
When iam home i use big swatpants,so it doesnt get to painfull and sticky with all the creams and lotions,but when i have to go out i need to put some jeans on ( pregnancy jeans now )..and i hate it,because everything sticks together and the jeans is stuck and i just feel trapped 😦
My sofa, floor,bed,bathroom,toilet,kitchen…everywhere u can see white flakes after me..and its so embarrassing..i got it all over my body,feet,legs,toes,knees,hands,scalp..everyday i need to clean up after me,and iam ashamed.

Its hard to explain for someone who never had this,but its pain..just..pain.

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Me and my big belly 22+1 (week 23)

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This is pictures from today,and it just keep getting worse..tomorrow im going to see my doctor,to find a solution i can use right now when iam pregnant.

Meet Jonathan <3

Hey guys,now we have been to our first ultrasound,and the experience was amazing!!
When i was lying there looking at the screen i was amazed by what i see..the little one was moving and turing around like a little dancer..so lovely.
I aks if she can see the gender,and yes she can..its a boy πŸ˜€
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Meet little Jonathan !! πŸ˜€ ❀  ( in week 15 )
He is perfect in any way possible,and i cant wait to go back in four weeks for another ultrasound,and then set the date.

Tomorrow im going to the my first meeting with a midwife (jordmor) and im kinda excited,its the first time..and i have a lot of questions for her.So im gona blog more when ive been there πŸ˜‰

My birthday,my pregnancy & photos:)

Hey,and good evening to you..
Today the sun is actually shining in Trondheim..and im starting to get that spring feeling,even tho its not that warm outside,and we can still see a little bit of snow..But its ok,i think its gona go away soon if the sun keeps on shining πŸ˜‰
Yesterday,sunday march 1 it was my birthday..one year older,ufff…even tho i feel like i never age πŸ˜€
Later that day my family made dinner,one of my favorite foods..and cake..i love cake.. πŸ˜€
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Sweet chocolate cake..yummi πŸ˜€

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Look at this..oooow πŸ˜€

Thank you all for a amazing day!

Now its just 8 days till im going to the first ultrasound..and i cant wait..wanna see my little baby so bad now..wanna listen to the heartbeat,and see that everything is ok ❀ And find out how far iam in my pregnancy.

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Im either 14 or 18 weeks..what you think?

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Last week i just had to buy this cute grey hoodie and sweatpants,cuz i dont know the gender yet..so everything is unisex for now..but i wanna know..is it a girl..or a boy..already talking bout names too..but when i dont know,its kinda hard..hope they can tell me after the ultrasound πŸ˜€

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yeah..i just had to buy my first jeans for pregnant woman,and they are amazing too..wish i had more of them haha..
I bought them at HM for 399 kroner πŸ™‚ The first photo i use my normal jeans,and they are just too tight now.

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Now im gona make some sandwitches and eat some,we are hungry πŸ˜€
See yah soon..be blessed.

A new year,a new beginning;)

Hey,and welcome back to my blog..i totally forgot to blog on this one..and im so sorry..
Alot has happend since last time i wrote here,and iam so excited!!

March 10 im going on my first ultrasound,and ooowiii i cant wait to se her/him bouncing around inside my belly πŸ™‚

Only bad about all this is my skin disease,- my psoriasis came back,bcuz i cant take my medicine Stelara when im pregnant,but hopefully it will get better when im further in my pregnancy πŸ˜‰

Guess you all are excited to see my belly now? I take alot of pictures,cuz yeahhh..iam a first time mommy ❀
But in general i love taking pictures anyway,so im gona try to update you all on our journey to becoming this little family πŸ™‚

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This 3 pictures are from today πŸ™‚

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Pictures of me today

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This is me,february 2.

I have so many more pictures,but im gona post them next time;)
See yah all soon!

Need a little outbreak.

I dont know what it is or why,but i just feel like shit,and depressed.
I cant describe it or tell you why.It is what it is.And this is how my life usually is.
I dont tell or talk to people bout it,cuz really..i dont want to bother anyone about my private life and whats going on in it.
Those who know me good,like..REAL good,they know what i been thru and what my private struggles are..
Many years ago i actually had a norwegian blog where i wrote everything,my ups and downs.My day to day struggle,and i know many appreciated that,cuz then they “knew” how i was.
But i stopped writing,i stopped it all.Cuz it got to personal.
This is my first in a long time,and probably my last….
I dont like that people.. or even friends and family know my inner thoughts and struggles.
So i keep them all to myself.
Sometimes when people ask me whats up with me..i just say im ok,im good,im fine…then i can avoid all the explaining.
Cuz everytime i have to explain my life..why i dont work,why im not that social,why im this and why im that..it kills me inside.
If you only knew..or understood.But sometimes this cant be explained.You just have to take me..for me..as iam.
The last week or so..nah..maybe more..i dont know..i been feeling real shit..real down..depressed..i been sleeping most of the time..and up all night..i eat maybe one meal a day..been anti-social..dont wanna talk much..or go out.
I have lived with this struggles for 16 years..My life didnt go as i wanted,but here iam..a invisible soldier with my own battles.
And im sorry if you dont understand me..but please respect me..i didnt chose this.
I know you see me smiling,laughing..But you dont see my tears and you dont know my thoughts.
I lived like this for a long time,i know when to put my “game face” on..my mask..the smile..

Im tired.

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Im back..again..

Hey,been a while since i been on this blog..sorry bout that..but here iam.
Last post i wrote i that i moved..and im enjoying my apartment..its awesome.
I also celebrated my birthday,had some friends over..was nice.
Think im just gona post pictures from the last months as usual.

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Think thats it for now..but follow me on instagram..its alot more there.. -> kalihk

So be blessed.

So its a new year..and here iam :))

Its been a while now,since i been using this blog.
But here iam..and im gona try to update you guys as good as i can.
Now this last week i moved into my own apartment,and its just awesome πŸ™‚
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Not done yet with the last finish tho..still some more to do,just been here a week:)

Oooh christmas has been too,and i didnt even write about that..
I was with my family,just spent some time with them..ate good food and enjoyed theyr company.
Guess i can just post some pictures i been taking thru the last months..If you follow me on instagram,or you are friends with me on Facebook you probably seen some of them before.
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This is me on christmas eve.

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I did this xD .. snapchat everything…

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Ate alot of this… πŸ™‚

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More snapchat… πŸ™‚

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Good food πŸ˜›

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Me and Missi on snapchat :))

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Got a new hoodie πŸ˜‰

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More candy xD

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Wished you all a happy holiday :))

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Was cold outside tho..and inside xD

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Yesssss πŸ˜€

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When i was moving…so many boxes..

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Lunch with my mom ❀

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Late night food and netflix πŸ˜‰

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Happy Kali :))

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Thats about it for now..
Tomorrow me and my dad are driving to sweden,just to buy some food n stuff..
Chaw for now people.
Be blessed ❀